Oh boy Easter. This one was unique and interesting. People tell you to be open to new things and I rarely need to listen. Lately however, I have not wanted to go out. I have wanted to be safe. Yesterday I went to a place that is famous for its connection to UFO sightings (I'm not saying I believe this). The building I was in was a dome that resonates from the sounds of crystal bowls. Integratron is a place where you can take a sound "bath." I feel strange about such a personal thing, and I sat in the lotus position, but most people looked up at the ceiling on their backs. I just couldn't and the young visitor next to me looked a lot like the way I imagine Lord Krisna looking. Of course I could not lay down. No way! Across the room there was another young man who looked the way I imagine Jesus looking, maybe not so much as the Krishna guy. I was able to meditate, but the occasional tear I felt on my cheeks brought me back to beautiful wooden room (I stayed in meditation for the half-hour.
That evening I attended a cook out way out in the desert. The food was so amazing and I know that's because the guy running the barbecue was from New Orleans. Actually some of the neighbors really knew how to cook. I could tell that these neighbors had the kindest of hearts. Our hostess was the most gracious. The open windswept desert was beautiful and inspiring. What an evening out in the sands of time. I wanted the time to last. I am very grateful for these moments at this time in my life. I know that is part of healing.
Moving through my grief after four years can now handle some laughter and tears. I want and need fewer tears and more laughter.
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